I've been awake for three hours, and have spent all three of those hours trying to think of something to write for all of you.
Since last night I've been having a hard time, full of doubt, fear, and insecurity. This isn't the first time during the past month and a half since receiving my mission call that I have felt this way, and certainly not the first time within the past year and a half, as I prepared to graduate from college and put in my mission papers, that I have felt alone and without worth.
Sometimes I see girls receiving calls to the places I used to dream about being called to and am filled with pained jealousy. Sometimes I read through my patriarchal blessing, looking for solace and direction, and only feel frustrated, as if my blessing were just a blank page.
Sometimes I think about serving a mission and wonder, "why bother?"
(Sorry, I think that the embedded video below is on autoplay! Hope your volume isn't on full blast like mine was.)
Being at home for spring break means that I forgot about a lot of things, including CES devotional broadcasts.
However, I kept thinking about this most recent address by Elder Bednar, and recognize it now as the Spirit prompting me to watch it. Today I finally got around to it.
Since last semester I've been carrying out an internship with my university's Office of Communications and Marketing. I'm a news writer, which basically means that I write articles for the university website and for the school's blog. I've really grown to love it, and it's helped me to develop a different set of writing skills that might become really useful later.
The reason that I'm telling you this is because I've been working on an article that covers a topic I feel very passionately about, and it's finally been posted on the website! There's also an accompanying video which you should watch, even if you don't read my article.
Wow, I'm surprised that I haven't talked about this yet! The District is a web series made by the church that gives a personal account of the lives of missionaries. If you haven't seen it yet, you have to.
The second season was filmed more recently than the first, and it focuses more on Preach My Gospel style of teaching, so if you haven't watched any of it yet, I'd watch the second season first. I'm very much biased; I love the segments about the sisters, and I feel the Spirit so often while watching them teach and watching their activities throughout the day. There's no doubt it my mind that the Lord really does work through missionaries to bring salvation to many.
So, go watch an episode or two! Each episode is about 30 minutes long.
Hey everyone! Happy Friday! I know that I haven't posted all week, and I'm so sorry! It's been a pretty busy week for me, and we changed things around in Mission Prep by practicing teaching on Tuesdays, so I couldn't even share my Mission Prep notes with you!
Just to tide you over until my next real post, here's a video (via BYU's The Universe) chock full of missionaries opening their mission calls. I don't know about you, but I absolutely love to watch missionaries open their calls, even strangers.
Shout out to the guy who was called to serve in the Philadelphia, Pennsylvania mission: that's my home mission! Maybe I'll see you around before I leave.
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